Three In One

Assalamualaikum, and hi.

Today have been a hectic day for me. Yes it's Saturday and I suppose to get some rest or probably enjoying myself, but early in the morning I have to went to driving school and practice how to motor cycling and drive car. There is nothing much in motorcycling, but when it comes to driving the car, my whole body is sweating, and my hands are aching. Blerghh... 

But the awesome moment is, the trainer gave him permission to drive the car from Batu 9 until Flat Sri Sabah (it's about half hour of driving). I am, however, can overcome my fear on the road, and manage to drive very well with the traffic congestion. At some point, my left leg felt almost numb, in order to control the clutch. Well, I did arrive safe and sound, aite?

Told you that I am a fast learner. Okay, maybe a little bit of low self confidence. *fliphair

Okay.

There have been a wedding ceremony at our place, the host is my father's friend. It's his daughter who get married. I told my father to go, well because this friend of him helped us a lot. So, it wouldn't be nice if we are not going, aite? 

So, we went there, and my father and his friend have a little chat.

Friend: "It's so kind of you to come here, despite of your condition." (note: my father was attacked by stroke before, so his condition is not very well.)

Father: "If it not because of her (pointing at me), I can't manage come. I can't even see the road which I taking. Thank God that she's around."

Friend: "You're lucky to have such an obedient daughter, willing to take you anywhere."

Father: "Speaking of, now she is taking class at driving school. So later on, I don't have to bother you." 

Friend: "Please don't talk like that, you never been such a troublesome for me. But it's good though, although in your condition like this, your children never leaves you."

Father: "Ohh, they will someday. Especially this one (me). Someday she will marry someone, and have to follow her husband. None will stay, when they have their own family."

Friend: "Don't talk like that, maybe she will find you someone to take good care for you."

Father: "She also have a tough time to find her soul mate, where got time to help me find one for me?"

And both laughing hard. And I was like... aren't there any other things to chat about? Duhh...

It's is nice you know, when you know that you can take care of your parent, and people around recognized and believe you can manage it well. 

But the thing is, my father and I always have our own thought which we hardly agree with each other. We fight, and I always said awful things to him when I angry. And every time after that, I always get upset of myself because not being able to control my anger.

The expectation from others, that I am a good and nice girl, an obedient daughter sometimes burden me a lot, because I know I am not like that. But father always says that he proud to have us as his children. Although none of us are really, really the obedient type.

Father and I. 

Photo taken around 2008/2009 when he in his best health condition.

I don't live with others' expectation, but I know that my father know that I am trying my best.

Okay, next.

10 years ago, he came to our life and bright us up. He was born with Down Syndrome, not mentally perfect, but yet we never tired to spare our love to him. As you love him, he will love you more. He's growing up without me by his side actually, despite on his condition, he never forget that I am his sister and always greet me with love whenever I'm coming home. 

Now, although that he is 10 now, and barely can speak the exact words or sentence. But he manage to get himself to eat on his own, to go to toilet without any assistance, and turn on TV and switch to his favorite channel as he want.

And I thank to Allah, for giving me and my family this priceless gift, and we couldn't ask for more. I think without him in this family, we're a little bit dying inside and become more soul-less.

 With his older brother

Happy 10th birthday.

That's the three stories of today, have a nice weekend I will keep you posted about my activity tomorrow. In case if anybody interested. 

Bye.

A Conversation with Stranger

Assalamualaikum, and have a bless Sunday guys.

Yesterday, after finishing my Takaful exam, I waited for a taxi to go home. After 10 minutes of waiting, finally a taxi appeared. After asking him to send me to my home, and he agreed, so I hop in to his taxi.

For a while, we didn't talk with each other. I was only looked out the window with my mind wondering around (well, I have FAILED the exam T^T), thinking about what will happen next.

I saw him looking at a job advertisement, as a factory operator, then I asked him.

Me: "Are you looking for another job, uncle?" 

Taxi driver: "No lah, this ads is in my newspaper. I'm just looking at it. The basic salary only RM 800, far lower from what I have now. Why switch? In Kuala Lumpur, it is impossible to live with only RM 800. Some more when you have family, yada, yada, yada...(well, he basically talked about how much expenditure on his family)."

Me: "It's true, here is a tough city."

Taxi driver: "So, what you doing there?" (He asked me why I'm there, the place where he picked me up)

Me: "Oh, I'm taking an exam."

Taxi driver: "So, you are still studying?"

Me: "No, I'm working. Started two months ago. You can say that I'm a fresh grad."

Taxi driver: "I have a daughter, the eldest one. After she finish her  study, she just get married. I thought she will be the savior of the family, to help me, and her siblings."

Me: "What, she never contacted you after being married?"

Taxi driver: "It's not like that. When she have her own family, well basically her family is her first priority. She have to listen to her husband, isn't it?"

Me: "Oh..."

Taxi driver: "Sometimes, when I asked to borrow some money, she always complaint that she too don't have enough money. Just imagine, as a father who asking to borrow some money, and get a replied like that from his own daughter, my tears are almost coming out."

He paused, and continue...

"Children nowadays, aren't similar as children at my time. When I was young, with wages only RM 300-RM 400, always spare some for my parents. Unlike my daughter, I just wanted to borrow some, just borrow, and she can't help me with that."

"As a father, I willing not to eat, if there aren't enough foods. I just let my children fills their stomach first. And when they grown up, they just being selfish."

"Well, I'm not blaming her. I just thought that it will be nice, if she just work for a while after graduate and help the family instead of marrying too soon."

And I just sit back there, nodded all the while.

Well, a father/mother can take care his/her 4-5 children, and the 4-5 children are hardly can take care their only father'mother.

My parents and I may have some issues, I mean there are some disagreement between us. But I always pray, and hope that I will never be a Si Tanggang, who forget his old mother when he success. 

I miss my ayah and ibu. Going to call them after this.

Treasure what you have, don't mourn when there are nothing left.